Are you contemplating suicide? Please read this:
(this article was written by a former sheriff)
While I was on the Sheriff's Department I saw and investigated a lot of suicides.
Every one of them was a tragedy. Each person I saw had the potential to give something to this world.
Each person I saw had made a decision that could not be changed; it was final.
I never investigated a suicide and found that the person had a problem or problems that was totally different then the problems that many other people also face. Most importantly I never investigated a suicide where there was a problem too horrible or too bad that one act would not have taken care of it. That act would have been to lay that problem at the foot of the cross of Jesus Christ. There is no sin (and that is what most problems are or at least start as) that Jesus cannot forgive and help the person deal with.