I may be the only one, who feels this, but it seems every time I step out to do something for God I feel alone and feel like I hear God say things, but people sometimes act weird towards you if you tell them what you heard and then a deep loneliness steeps my spirit. We have moved several times and each time we arrive in a new place I feel this loneliness. Ministry is a lonely place, because honestly not everyone has a deep calling to get closer to God, for some church is a social club, or their family has always gone, so they go, but when you aren’t raised in church there is a different outlook,( now don’t get upset, I know people raised in the church who appreciate it too.) I know where I would be without Jesus, because I’ve been there before, I have been lost. It’s funny…God speaks to each one of us everyday, but some hear and some don’t. I have always wondered why that is, and the other day I was in church and I received this, and it became clear to me that there are some Christians that are tone deaf to God’s voice. To be tone deaf means you are unable to tell the difference between musical notes..So I look at it like this, there are just some people that cannot tell the difference between God’s voice, the devil’s voice and the sounds of the world. Another very interesting about being tone deaf is this the hearing impairment only affects the sounds of music there are no other problems in any other areas concerning hearing! People around us function normally so we just assume that they are hearing from God daily like they are supposed to be. I remember one time I questioned God about this loneliness and the reply I got was how in the Bible it talks about how He didn’t have a place to lay his head! I mean at least I have a home and a family who loves me! Then think about the cross, He was hanging all alone, yes He was God then too, but He felt the loneliness you & feel otherwise He isn’t much of a God, is He? When you feel a deeper calling of God sometimes you will lose friends, even those you thought would be around always, I’m sure the fleshly side of Jesus thought Peter would never deny Him, but he did, 3 times! The end result of Peter is so much better though, he got to preach the first apostolic message! It may not seem worth the price when the loneliness sets in, but in the end your ministry will grow and progress so much more than you ever dreamed…a little pain is a small cost. I want to preface what I’m about to say with this, I’m not a person full of myself, I know anything good in us or me is because of Him. While I was growing up I always felt out of place, I’d usually have a friend or two, but I never knew why, I just never fit, and even after I got in church I felt that way sometimes too, my heart has always longed to be one with God, just really walk close to Him, and not everyone feels the same way. Recently we have been told some pretty mighty things through prophecies, and you know those feelings of discontent and loneliness has made perfect sense, in order to be used mightily of God I need to be as far from the world as I can get! And yes, that includes worldly people too, does it hurt?, yes! But the rewards that will come are so worth it…just hold on my friend, and know that He will complete the work that He has started in you! I truly believe there is a church within a church, the scripture that says not everyone that says Lord, Lord will be saved..my opinion that also includes apostolics too, we hear that is referring to denominal churches, but there are many people who use the Lord’s name who don’t really know Him or desire to…with all my heart I want to be in THE church within the church, I want my life to reflect Him, only HIM! Be encouraged if you hear Him calling you into deeper places in Him, you are truly blessed to feel the way He did, and thank God you can hear Him! I love y’all….