If you are contemplating suicide you probably think I don't understand. Okay let's look at that.

While I was a Police Officer the law enforcement profession had the highest suicide rate of any profession.

It was the second highest profession as far as alcoholism. Police Officers are under stress every day.

You may not like them, you may not think that they have a hard job, but think about this. If they think someone has a gun and is about to try to hurt them, they have mere seconds to make a decision on what to do.

Do they take this person's life or risk being killed themselves? If they decide to take the life and then find out that the person did not have a weapon, they will be judged by people who have never been in that situation and who have all the facts and plenty of time to make their decision. If they don't take the person's life and that person does have a weapon and the will to use it, they may very well be the next name listed on my Police Memorial page.

The other thing that adversely affects Police Officers is the amount of death and pain they see on a daily basis. Day in and day out it seemed that I dealt with death. In order to keep my sanity I had to have a defense mechanism. Like most Police Officers I put up a wall and became cold and detached from the death and pain. That helped me not have too many nightmares although I did have some, but it changed me on the inside.

The pain was there, I just refused to admit it.

I could look at death and then go eat my supper. I could stand around a horrible death scene waiting on the coroner and talk to other officers about the weather or what we were going to do in the morning, or tell jokes. Slowly something started to happen to me, I began to feel so cold and so old that life was no longer a pleasure.

I would look at the dead bodies and feel like at least they were out of the pain of this world, they were at peace.

That was a LIE! They were not at peace, they were just in a different hell, one that I almost got sucked into. I believe that is what happens to most Police Officers who commit suicide, they begin to think that the pain will go away if they kill themselves. I was in a lot of pain, my marriage was all but over, I had no friends other than other Police Officers, I did not feel well physically or mentally, death sounded good. It sounded like a way to escape.

So let's now look at suicide itself. It is the killing of yourself. If you are going to kill yourself then you better first think about what happens after you are dead.

Maybe you want to hurt someone you think doesn't care about you.

Well if they don't care now, why are they going to care if you kill yourself?

Maybe you want to have everyone feel sorry for you. Okay that might work, but you won't be around to know about it, and sooner or later they will get over your death anyway.

Maybe you have screwed up so badly that you think this is the only way out.

WRONG! For one there is nothing that can't be faced and taken care of if you are willing to face it.

Second if you kill yourself, then what?

What happens after you die? Do you believe that you just become part of the universe? If so then you truly have no hope. Or is there an after life? If so what does that mean?

The Bible says: (Hebrews 9:27 NIV) Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment...

Once you are dead the only thing left is to wait to answer to God for the life you led while alive.

If you kill yourself because you got pregnant and could not face it, or because you had an abortion, or because people found out you are a homosexual, or because you lost your family due to an sexual immorality, or you were caught with drugs, or you are an alcoholic who can't stop, or a drug abuser, no matter what the problem, you will face judgment for it.

Think of it this way. Once you die those sins and problems are permanently attached to you, you can't get rid of them, all you can do is wait until God judges you for them. However, while you are still alive you can get ride of them. You can take them off yourself and place them at the feet of Jesus Christ. He has already died for them.

 He already paid the penalty for you. He has already faced judgment for your sins. All you have to do is ask Him to forgive you and take away your sins.

Laying your sins and burdens at Jesus' feet won't take away all the consequences of your sins. If you are pregnant you will still be pregnant and have to deal with that problem. Whatever your problem is you will still have to deal with it. The good news is you won't have to deal with it on your own any longer. God will help you, He will give you strength. He will never leave you alone again. You will also be able to find other Christians who will help you carry your burden.

Many people look at Christians and feel that there is no way 'those' people can understand what I am going through. Again this is a lie. Christian churches are full of people who have laid sins at the feet of Jesus.

Most churches are full of "forgiven" adulterers, alcoholics, drug addicts, abusers, homosexuals, thieves, liars, people who have had abortions, people who thought about or even attempted suicide, people who thought their lives were worthless, people who at one time thought they were too bad of a sinner for God to love and forgive.

(John 3:16 NIV) "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. Eternal life, that is what it is all about. If you believe that God sent his Son to die for your sins and then you ask Him to come into your heart and take control, He will and He will give you eternal life. You will be surprised how much your life changes. Your problems won't seem so large anymore or so hard to face.

The choice is yours. Eternal life through Jesus Christ and face the problems of this life with His help, or eternal separation from God in Hell because you won't face the problems of this life and would rather hurry your journey to judgment. No I don't candy coat it, because I care and I don't want to see anyone make this horrible, unchangeable, final choice to rush into eternal punishment.

I am often asked what happens if a Christian commits suicide? I personally don't believe in 'Once Saved Always Saved,' I believe that no one can snatch you away from God nor can you lose your savlavtion, but I also believe that you don't lose your free will upon accepting Christ as your Savior. So if you choose to turn away from God after your salvation I believe that is possible. So back to the question of what happens if a Christian kills themselfs; take a look at this verse and decide for yourself. Remember that Paul is speaking to Christians!

(1 Corinthians 3:16-17 NIV) Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? {17} If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple.

( From some1caresforu: now if you will allow me to insert or interject a few words or thoughts of my own )

NOTE: Let me make one thing clear. I believe that suicide is a sin against God and I believe that if you have not accepted Christ as your savior before your death your fate is sealed unto judgment.

However, I don't want anything said to be taken to the extreme.

If a person has a chemical imbalance or other disease which limits their mental faculties then that is not the same thing as choosing to commit suicide with a clear mind.

Let me be blunt, if you are reading this page and are looking for a loop hole so that your conscience will be clear to kill yourself.

Then by the fact that you are doing so shows you are in control of your mental faculties and I believe you will be held accountable to God against Whom suicide is a sin. read the following:

Do you think you are the only one who is thinking of suicide?

She was 20 yrs old when she decided that life was too hard and killed herself. She died on Mothers day of 1988 and as I am typing this I have tears pouring down my face. One of our customers at work killed himself today and he was only 19 and it just brings it all back like it is happening to me again.

My sister was a happy person. Intelligent and very kind.

The thing about suicide is that they seem to forget that people love them and would do anything to get them through the pain they are feeling.

I would give anything to have her back. I still miss her so much and the pain she was feeling was nothing to the pain I have gone through since she left me.

Suicide is inconsiderate and very painful. And I know that life is suppose to teach you things but what is the lesson here. I haven't learned anything but instead have become bitter and don't trust anyone.

To anyone who is contemplating killing themselves please stop and think.

The pain you are feeling will go away but your loved ones will never be the same again.

To the persons or persons who may be contemplating suicide.

Let me say, That you are loved more than you realize. You are not alone. 

Some how I believe that you are an overcomer, you can make it, you will heal.

You are better than them, bigger than it, and more able than you think.

Remember your are very special and no I don't have to know you to say that.

I do know God cares!

He said he does! " casting all your cares upon him for  careth for you "

And I do know that God made you with a special purpose.

" Before you were in the womb, I knew you and formed (planned) you.."' For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you a future, plans to prosper you and not to harm you..'.

So you remember when others put you down, when others mock or criticize you, hate and regect you. hurt and ridicule you, neglect and abuse you.

There is someone who understands, who cares!

Your life does have value, does have worth and meaning. Don't listen to the lies of selfish, uncaring people. There is hope. There is help. There is love.  You know my friend if I could just jump out of these pages. I would! And I would give you a big big warm bear hug, and let you know that Some1caresforu! Again I say your not alone.

Please DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! Hold on, sure life seems like hell sometimes, seems so messed up, so not worth goin on?

But it's all a lie. There is so much that life has to offer you. To give you. To inspire you.

Take in a Sunset or a Sunrise, Notice the beauty and wonder, splendor and radiance of it all.

Just step outdoors and breathe that fresh aromatic essence. Smell the flowers, and grasp the sweet fragrance of life in them.  

Listen... Listen to the birds chirp and sing their soothing melody of life.

Did you know they bring you a song all the way from heaven.

All just for you from God the father. .

Let the sun shine on your face, let it warm your soul and reinvigorate your spirit.

 Hey why not just roll in the grass, or run thru it with your shoes off for that matter. Climb a mountian and yell your guts out.

Play with the dog or pet a kitten, push someone on the swings.

Glance up at the clouds and see what you may find or notice?

Or just grab a good book maybe even the Bible, throw a few logs on the fireplace, put on some good music and get cozy....    

Remember this storm, this difficult time or times, it too shall pass one day and we will smile again, laugh again, love again...Live again...

In his service yours sincerely                                                                                                                                     Some1caresforu    a.k.a George.

Prepared by: George R. Nava  2170 E. Market St. Stk, Ca ph-209-943-2871