I was riding home the other day from doing my Community Education for
work and, as usual I was thinking. I was thinking about myself, my walk
with God, my testimony.
I was thinking about all that has
changed, thinking about some of the things I have learned about others
in this walk, thinking about all the things that have been let go.
When I was a teenager in high school in Sulphur, Louisiana there were a few
Apostolics
that I came in contact with in school. I was not raised going to church
although I knew I needed God and felt there was something beyond what I
had experienced in the churches I had attended.
I remember one
girl that was in Chorus with me. She had the voice of an angel. I knew
she had something I could not even begin to understand. I watched her
and wondered at what it was that she had experienced. But I was too
afraid to ask.
Then another girl in my typing class was
Apostolic. I did ask her some questions. Knowing what I know now, I
realize she was rebellious. I remember even then, listening to the
things she said, I was thinking "Man, if I had what you have, I would
not want to throw it away."
I saw her again a year or so later
and she looked just like me, and do you know what? I felt so let down
and hurt. I was disappointed because I couldn't believe she would just
walk away from something that seemed so incredible to me.
My
brother is the one who really got me into church. He and my
sister-in-law started going to an Assembly of God. It was so different
from anything I had ever been to. But still, I did not feel satisfied.
A
few years later, after I had given up altogether, my brother found
something else, and he was changed, really changed. It was radical and
I longed to know.
I cannot put into words what an impact that
first Apostolic service had on me. I had no idea that such joy existed.
It was mind blowing! And the revelation that Jesus WAS God manifested
in the flesh, that there weren't 3 Gods but only ONE, amazing!
Then
I was baptized in the Name of Jesus, and just like in the book of Acts,
I received the Holy Ghost with evidence of speaking in tongues just
like they did that long ago day and I was forever changed.
Have
you ever seen one of those
pictures where there is something hidden but
once you see it you can never look at it again without seeing it? I
have never looked at the Word the same. My eyes have been forever
opened. I am so thankful.
Now I have an obligation. I have an
obligation to get out and make my mark on the world at large for the
One who left His mark on me.
I want to see lives changed, hope
renewed, the church increased. I want to live my life in such a way
that I am lifting Him up in all things, because if I lift Him up, HE
will draw them in.
I think about that girl from high school
today. I think about all that she had and all that she gave up. I think
about her longing to experience the things of the world, the things she
thought she was missing out on, and I think about the mark the world
left on her. Gone was her reverence, gone was her awe, gone was her
love of the things of God. Gone also was the glory that had once filled
her face, the anointing that had covered her, the sweetness that had
surrounded her.
My Pastor's wife used a wonderful illustration
to our youth one day that my children still talk about. She came in
dressed in a white robe and stood in the class and began to talk to the
class. As she spoke about different situations and how they didn't
matter she began to smear mud on her gown. Finally she turned to a full
length mirror and was looking at herself, not seeing seeing her own
filth.
That is what happens to us, is it not? Either we make our
mark for Him on the world, or the world makes it mark on us. There is
no in-between. It is either black or white, hot or cold. There is NO
easy way.
I challenge you today, find the sinner's prayer in the
Bible. Find where it says you shake the preacher's hand and you are
saved. Find evidence that once you do this you are forever saved. I can
tell you, it's not there.
I have an obligation because I bear
His mark. I have searched the Word, and I know that if just believing
were enough that heaven would be full of devils (James 2:19 Thou
believest
that there is ONE God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and
tremble.) I know it goes further than believing only (James 2:20 But
wilt thou know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead).
James 2:26 For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead.
The world needs to see His mark, or it sees you as an empty canvas, awaiting the hand of its master.